The parents of Madison Holleran, an Ivy League track star, have released her suicide note. The freshman University of Pennsylvania student jumped from a parking garage in Jan. 17, 2014 due to stress from school works and depression, Daily Mail reports.
"I thought how unpleasant it is to be locked out and I thought how it is worse perhaps to be locked in," she wrote in the note.
"For you mom...the necklaces...For you, Nana & Papa...GingerSnaps (always reminds me of you)...For you Ingrid...The Happiness Project. And Dad...the Godiva chocolate truffles. I love you all...I'm sorry. I love you," Madison notes read as she left her family with presents before she committed suicide.
According to her father, Jim Holleran, she has always been a happy kid but on Dec. 2013 she told him that she's feeling suicidal and seeing a therapist. Her family felt devastated after her shocking death. He added that his daughter was a perfectionist as they found drafts of her suicide note on her dorm.
"During the funeral, a guy from [the town] came and said, 'Jim, if I were to tell you, I'm God and I'm going to give you a daughter for 19 years but I will take her back, will you take this deal?'" Holleran shared to the publication.
"And I said, 'you just told me about Madison. So I would say yes.' She gave me 19 phenomenal years."
Mr. Holleran also encourages parents to open up about suicide discussions over their children if they are seeing "huge changes" in them.
Meanwhile, Madison's parents launched the Madison Holleran Foundation to help high school and college students who suffer from depression, the organization aims to "prevent suicides and to assist those in a crisis situation with phone numbers and resources that will assist them during their time in crisis."
